Emptiness & Sad...
For the past few weeks, there are moments when I woke up in the middle of the nite feeling empty and the feeling just get worsen each time it comes. There are things which require my immediate attention, but I procrastinating. There are times when I wanted to blog, but no words come out right. I m tired of waiting for luv to come; it will not come; and i dun wish it to happen too. Is it my life too mundane, or is the malevolent persistent flu making me exhausted, languid and lonely? I really hate this feeling. *** I just received the news of my beloved grandma has passed away this morning. I'm loss for words...
posted by Catherine *MeowMeow* @ 3/13/2006 10:01:00 AM
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I am sorry to hear that dearie... *HUGS*
As a woman, I know how exactly you are feeling. I went through 4 years of such depressing thoughts, thinking abt the same stuff. I feel miserable most of the times, especially when I keep meeting all the Mr Wrongs. I can see myself in you.
Sometimes, waiting may not be the answer.
Sometimes, it's about being proactive, being happier, being more confident. A girl with such traits would draw more people near her, than one who feels insecure or sad or moody.
It's a natural reaction. You would be drawn to happy, confident, witty men too right?
After four years of self-torture and self-abasement, I decided to live a happier life...with or without a guy.
Life is too short to be swimming in a self-pity pool. I learnt to open up once more, make friends, keep my options open, allow myself to be introduced to friends' friends, colleagues, relatives whatever.
Hang out. Watch movies. Enjoy dinner. Or simply just have a chat. No strings attached, but you are letting yourself out there, to enjoy singledom to its max. And somehow, through this journey, you may find a lot of people going in and out of your life. Some may disappear forever. Some may hang around. And some, will choose to stay.
I started going back to my IRC chats(used to do it 7 years ago!). Set up an MSN a/c and started distributing it online through forums that I subscribed too or to friends i get to know thru IRC. I started blogging, and putting more of myself online. I started to date - and just keep my mind off snaring a guy - but just focus on having fun and revelling in the fact that there are still people out there who wanna date me! haha
If we are out in a group, and a guy is relatively shy, I will take the initiative to speak to him and get him to open up.
Laughter works. I like making peeps laugh cos it loosens them up. :)
Just be yourself. You have a great personality. Changing your perception towards how u embrace your life will bring abt a whole new you.
I will always be here if u ever need to talk. I'm free on weekends so if u are ever game for high tea, u know how to get me. :)
Hey...be brave ya?
My sincere heartfelt condolences :(
Procrastination simply will not make things any easier but otherwise..i agree with elvina that being more proactive can make life much much more enjoyable in many ways..since you are already feeling tired of waiting passively for things to happen..GO FORTH AND ACHIEVE!! 加油..^_^..
Dear Cath,
So sorry to hear of your loss.
No one is really gone if we remember them.
Treasure the times you had spent with your dear grandma...
Stay strong, as I know you will. :)
My condolences.
Seems to me that Elvina is the more enlightened one in the area of romance...
Haiz somethings are hard to take up and hard to put down... That's life lor.
Sorry to hear the passing of your beloved grandma. May her soul rest in peace.
Regardless, do move on with the sweetest memories she left you- a legacy no one can take away. Be strong and courageous.
My deepest condolences.
Sorry to hear of your loss.
I'm also sorry to read of your feeling low and empty.
It is not the way you or anyone should feel.
It is easy to say, "Smile and be happy. Go out and enjoy life." Of course, it is much harder to do.
You can see from the comments on your blog that there are a number of people who are concerned about you and who really do wish the best for you.
Maybe these well meaning people and their warm thoughts for you come across as too distant, too far away ... and it is unfortunate.
Yeah, it is always nicer to be able to go out with someone and to spend time with someone - even if it is to do nothing more than just be with someone (maybe have a coffee, some dessert, and a long walk).
Elvina's got good encouragement for you in herr comment.
Take care.
so sorry to hear this...
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